Metz Secret: Burn Out

I am writing this as a means to let out a bit and to voice how burnt out I am with work for the past couple of training sessions now. I don't know why anymore but I just want to be somewhere or do something that just taps into more of what I am really good at and with what I love doing. I feel so drained at the end of each day and am begging for the weekends. Don't get me wrong though, I feel fulfilled every time I get to see the smile on the people that I train and more so when I see that they are improving greatly on a daily basis. I love the fact that they get hired and have begun their new lives in the field that they have chosen. But, my brain, my being feels trapped like a bird trying to figure a way to spread my wings and test the sky. How can I do that when I feel like chains are strapped to my feet.

I don't feel inspired or motivated at work anymore. I know that people have to find motivation and drive from within, but I have been getting that from my reserves for quite a while now since there doesn't seem to be anything that is coming from the outside to replenish it. I normally have a very positive outlook on life but how can I continue to do that when the surroundings aren't conducive to provide the much needed emotional support that I so desperately need.

How much is it to ask for a pat on the back for a job well done. How much does it cost to show a bit of appreciation for working so hard and doing our best to hit the numbers. All I get are rules and regulations, that restrict and restrain. All I see are reprimands coming left and right. Where is the fun in the office that once had a lot of the Philosophy of FISH that made it prosper and bloom? It feels like a black hole has formed inside the office and it is sucking everyone dry. How long will it take for the right people to notice that there is a problem and that it is something that needs to be addressed. How can we voice our concerns out when all one can expect is a possible reprimand or worse nothing but a dead wall to talk to.

We preach customer service to the people we train, but inside the office I feel that customer service amongst ourselves does not exist. How can I continue to teach what we do not practice. How can I stand tall without a strong support.

I strongly believe that the company has the power to fix the problems that it is facing and these are easy things to fix. The issue is - when will someone take the time to listen and to finally do something that makes a difference? When will someone find the power to inspire us to be our best again? Who is going to spark the flames that once made the company great?

I am afraid that the answer to those questions is - I don't know.

Right now all I pray is for someone to help me dream big one last time.